A Suicide Anthem

So I said I wouldn't write again....and I won't....but that doesnt mean I cant slice & dice and make others words fit the way I see it.It's not exactly "happy" so if your not in the mood to enter my world, no one's forcing you to read it.

If this disturbs you then walk away

Well if you wanted honesty, that's all you had to say.
I never want to let you down or have you go, it's better off this way.
There's always something different going wrong
The path I walk's in the wrong direction
There's always someone fucking hanging on
Can anybody help me make things better?
This battered room I've seen before
The broken bones they heal no more, no more
With my last breath I'm choking
Will this ever end I'm hoping
My world is over one more time
Would she hear me if I called her name?
Would she hold me if she knew my shame?
Your tears don't fall
They crash around me
But you really need to listen to me
Because I'm telling you the truth
I mean this, I'm okay!(Trust Me)
I'm not okayI'm not okay
Well, I'm not okay
I'm not o-fucking-kay
I'm not okayI'm not okay(Okay)

he was always giving her attention
looking hard to find the thing's she mentioned
he's tryin to forget herif you've got nothin left
say I don't want to be in loveI don't want to be in love
Now I knowthat I cant make you stay
but where's your heratbut where's your heart
but where's youand I know
there's nothing I can say
to change that part
to change that partto change
I watched a change in you
It's like you never had wing's
I watched you change...
I look at the cross
and I look away
give you the gun
blow me away
If I dead we'd be together now
I can't always just forget her
but she could try
at the end of the world
if I fall
you are never coming home
never coming home
What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I say So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
my love for you remains the same
the loneliness is setting in I have no one to free my sins
Well I'll take my time
As I drift and die
As I drift and die
As I drift and die
As I drift and die
Although I need you
I'm not gonna make this
You know I want you but I'm in too deep.
So listen
listen to me
oh you must believe me
I can feel your eyes go through me
but I don't know why
I know you're going but I can't believe
It's the way that you're leaving
The promise that he made
Lay broken on the floor
The bruise left round your heart
Left you begging for more
Thank you, for making me
Worthless, in your eyes
In hope and desperation
Please someone help me
When I cant breath when I cant breath
I'm dying here in front of you
When I cant live with you
Please someone help me
When I cant breath
when I cant breath
I'm dying here in front of you
When I cant live with you