The Razing

So this blog has evolved, to me at least, from more then just a bitch & whine spot. In a very real and disturbing way it has become me. And as I come to realize this, I've discovered I don't much care for what I've become, I say what becuase frankly I don't feel as if I'm even human anymore. So with that in mind, tonight I made a decision.

I'm going to kill myself....but not physically, no. I'm taking all that is me inside, and executing it. Whatever survives is what I shall be, I hope for once it'll be for the better becuase I'm sick and tired of being such a little bitch.

The first step towards this end, was the razing of my myspace. There's nothing left there but a blank page and my friends list, all else has been destroyed. Myspace to me has always been a reflection of who I was and as a result it also needed to be sacrificed for the greater good. I soppose if this works I could rebuild it, and perhaps I shall...but for the remainder of this little endeavor it shall stay a blank slate.

Should this fail...I do not have the means to handle it and I fear the darkness shall forever claim me....sadistcally enough the situation reminds me alot like Jigsaw's method of "teaching" his victims in the Saw movies, and ultimately the end game is the same...so that said, I'll end this with one of his qoutes, fitting as it may be.

Live or die, make your choice.