Hey look a rant.

So, at this particular moment in time. I hate everything. I cannot relax, I'm tense, anxious, and just generally ready to snap. I'd be quite content with a shotgun blast to the face right now, or to deliver one, either or works for me at this point. Maybe a little blood spilt will make me feel better. Soppose I could cut myself to see how much it bleeds....but somehow I don't think that'll do it. Also pounding the living shit out of your skull....doesnt seem to work today, prolly have a concussion or two but I don't feel any bloody better. Even music fails to smother this "mood" so I have no clue what else to do. Canceled counseling today, no sure I even want to keep going doesnt seem to help at all anymore but what else is new. Fuck it.