Regrets

Ladies & Gentlemen, don't ever blow off someone you truly care about for someone else unless your damn sure they're worth it.  I have made this mistake, probably on more occasions then I care to remeber but this time was truly one of the worst mistakes I have ever made, period.  See there was this truly amazing girl I went to high school with she had a thing for me and vice versa but for reasons we won't get into right now we just never got together.  Anyway she was quite possibly the only person I trusted in those days the only one that would always listen, one of thew few people I've ever met that came anywhere near close to understanding me.....but after school ended we lost touch for a good while as happens to most people, this folks, was mistake number two I should've made the extra effort to keep in touch with her and I failed too.  Ended up getting back in touch with her about a year & a half ago or so right before her 21st bday so ok, perfect right? made plans to go out to the bar with her and what not........the day comes around and my g/f at the time who was sopposed to be doing something with her friends...which fell through, again....wants me to come see her so me, being a complete fucking idiot I make the change and go see her instead....Ladies & Gentlemen, this mistake was the final draw and I quite simply shall never forgive myself for it.

Tried a couple times to make plans with her a couple other times but there just wasn't a time match to plug everything together, another failure on my end.....Anyway, a couple months later she was in maine with her family on vacation and, ya know I still don't know what happened exactly...and I don't think I really wanna know, but she went to sleep one night and the next morning just didn't wake up.  The first anniversary of her death is next week...so people, do not make that mistake, it haunts you.